As we go on, we remember

I've been home for a few days . All cause of my leg . Act, I should be in school today but then Mom reminded me about all the stairs I have climb . Haa, kay that scares me and I don't wanna get my leg all hurt again . Adam reminded me about perlimau tapak . Halamak, dahlah ada kem orientasi pengakap . Mampuihh aku gini . Ain pulak told me about that we're gonna start wearing those new blue uniforms next monday . Ya Allah, takutnyaaa nak pikul tanggungjawab . Boleh pulak take over Badar Penerbitan next Ramadhan . Haaa, great . Pejam celik pejam celik, dah 2012 ._.

Monday was tiring -.- Mana taknyaa, turun naik segala tangga, jalan sana jalan sini . Memang tak cabut pun kaki  kaki si model ni :3 That morning, I've been crying infront of Aishah Aliah because of pain . Ya Allah, hanya kau sahaja yang tahu apa aku rasa . Oh and thank you Aliah :) Then I was okay . Still, I wanted to tear up all the things I could reach . I wanted to scream out loud and hit someone . I was in complete anger . Boleh pulak aku lepaskan dekat Maryam Najwa . Sorry honey :] Dalam kelas Shafiq dengan Khairil bising "Aina dah makin lawa xD Hitam sudaaaah" . Ya Allah, nak je aku baling meja dekat dia xD Memang ketara sangat burn makin teruk . Redha je laaaaa

Habis sekolah, pegi jumpa Cikgu Imelda tercintutt :3 I love her, weeee xD She understands a teenagers life, its good that she can keep a secret . Lagi tambah sayang dekat cikgu ni xD And then lepak dekat kelas . Sedang belek belek buku, terjumpa pulak surat Abe . Hahaha . And then koyak keratan kertas yang aku tulis time dekat Perpustakaan Negara, bagi dekat Adam :D Without noticing a thing, terbagi lagu Gloomy Sunday --' Adam, don't try to understand that song, bahaya . Trust me . Sorry baling botol air dekat kau and thanks for worrying. Nublan akhirnyaa ingat aku --' The girl with the newspapers

6.30 p.m. as usual, Aspuri held an assembly . Then ada announcement from Pak Guard, "Assalamualaikum dan selamat petang, perhatian kepada pelajar asrama puteri Aini Farihah Bt Mohd Tarmizee, sila turun ke tangga asrama, Ibu anda sedang menunggu, sekian terima kasih" . Masya'Allah, Aini Farihah mano pulok nii = =' Hahaha xD Memang tak malu pun semua Aspuri pandang . Kak Amni, thank you for lending a hand . I appreciate that a lot . Dapat free hug from Syifa' :D Atoto, sayang dia . Then Kak Syera shouted, "Aina, jaga diri elok elok, takut orang tengok Aina" . Haha, thanks Kak :) Then Afifah came rushing to me, "Kau nak keluar asrama ke?" . Taklaaaaah Ake . I'm only going home xD

Not to forget Muazzam, Afis, Hadirah and Fatin . Kamiila, Dibo, Mael and Hanif . Izzah, Wan, Mai and Adilah . Samhan, Kak Aqilah, Danial and Aizat . Guys thank you for showing me your love and care . I really need it at a time like this . Like I said, I'm lucky to have you guys with me :')

Hang in there honey

Bila Cik Aina hilang temper tak ingat dunia :3 

"Aku tak guna . Aku buduh . Takde siapa yang akan, boleh, cuba faham . Kenapa aku yang kene? Bukan orang lain? *Kutukan, umpatan dan perlian penuh kebencian* Baik mati je laa daripada hidup macam ni . Apa guna hidup kalau tiap tiap hari aku macam ni, terbeban! Ya Allah, kau benci aku ke? Aku hina ke di mata engkau? Ni ujian ke musibah Ya Allah? Aku tak tahan! *Campak, pecah, koyakkan barang yang diacapai . Jeritan menyusuli, akhirnya menitiskan air mata*"

Bila Cik Aina kembali rasional :3

Tak mungkin . Everybody makes mistakes because no one is born to be perfect . Tuhan tak sekejam itu . Kerana aku tahu, Dia Maha Pengampun, Dia Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Pemurah . Aku tak patut putus asa . Aku kene tabah . Orang lain kene uji lagi teruk Aina, ingat tu . Everything happens for a reason *Penyesalan, tempelak diri sendiri, flashbacks, kata-kata semangek sampai tiba tiba senyum --'* Maybe salah aku, aku je yang taknak terima kenyataan . Takpelah . Tak guna nak marah, nak nangis pun . Benda dah terjadi . Hahhaha, silly 'ol me xD *Laughs then sings*

You see, when we pray, God always answers us. It’s either a yes, no, or wait. He knows exactly when you’ll need something. Ever experienced those moments where things came along just at the right time? And when we don’t get what we want, it’s obviously a no. And there’s a reason for that, but only He knows what it is. All I know is that He’ll never take something away from you without replacing it with something better. Don’t ever think He left you aside. Just trust in Him. Walk by faith and not by sight

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This is for the people who suffered the most. This is for the people who thinks they’re not good enough, when the reality is no one can ever be good enough. This is for the people who cares about someone the most, but gets nothing in return. This is for the people who cut themselves. This is for the people who wants to give up in life. This is for the people who thinks they’re not important to anybody. This is for the people who once thought about committing suicide. This is for the people who thinks they're alone. This is for the people whose invisible to the crowd and not wanting to be heard. This is for all the beautiful people here. This is for you. You are amazing remember that. I love you 

The other side of the door

“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, when you say that you love me too.”

— William Shakespeare