Friday, September 13, 2013

Bravely facing another tune











Bismillah

Alhamdulillah, bertemu kembali kita di tempat yang dah berpuaka ni. Maaflah, taktahu dah nak tulis apa hahaha but to be honest banyak sangat ilmu yang nak dikongsikan. Pause sekejap yang tu. Oh and alhamdulillah, balik rumah dah hahha, next week balik lagi ada appointment :P Macam-macam perasaan bercampur sekarang aku seolah-olah lifeless. Good news, last week jumpa Hasib dekat Convention Centre KLCC dengar talk about Pelan Pembangunan Pendidikan which was actually worth it. Elok-elok Aku sapa dia dengan ekspresi wajah yang teruja boleh dia balas dengan pandangan pelik dari atas sampai bawah. Haha, cakap macam dah 7 tahun kenal. Two days later ke Pusat Sains Negara pulak dengar talks on Polymer. Eh eh, Sungai Pusu ada hahhaha. Sains Tulen je but alhamdulillah, masih lagi diberi peluang mengekalkan ukhwah dengan cara lain. Maaf Aku sombong, dalam hati dah hantuk-hantuk kepala dekat dinding marah diri sendiri sebab tak memanfaatkan coincidence. Takpelah, tahniah untuk team Paintball Lelaki under 18 and team Perempuan Under 15 SMK Sungai Pusu! Sambungkan perjuangan Tarantula walaupun ahli asalnya tinggal seorang sahaja dekat sana :)





Okay beralih kepada BAD NEWS





Nak cerita satu-satu leceh. Lepas satu-satu datang bergolek. Merungut, buntu, tu adalah tapi Aku belum berputus asa. Oops, takkan berputus asa to be exact. Ingatkan, balik rumah ni dapatlah berita gembira ke apa rupanaya hmmm. Aku dah lali dah. Hidup lagi rupanya manusia yang tidak berani untuk berdepan dengan Aku kerana tidak menyenangi Aku, ingatkan pupus dah species ni. Terkejut arnab Aku bukak Inbox, sudahlah pakai nama samaran. Aku kecewa dengan manusia yang bersikap macam ni. Tak puas hati, buat fake acc, add then hantar IM nak tunjuk kebencian dengan cara merepek melalut menggunakan bahasa yang kurang sopan, takut, terus block. Aku kecewa sebab instead of hating to the face dia pakai alternatif lain yang buruk padahnya. Bukankah laman sosial itu sepatutnya dijadikan medium berdakwah, medan untuk berkongsi ilmu dan menambah kenalan? Mengapa harus ada yang mengambil kesempatan untuk menyalah gunakannya dan buat kerja kotor macam ni? Mengapa tidak difikirkan dahulu semasak-masaknya tindakan yang bakal diambil? Bukankah berlaku jujur itu perbuatan yang mulia? Sekiranya engkau tahu betapa mulia orang yang jujur di sisi Allah tentu engkau tidak mengambil tindakan terburu-buru macam ini. Inilah manusia sekarang,
TAKUT KERANA SALAH


Daripada Abu Hurairah, Rasulullah bersabda
"Seorang Muslim adalah saudara kepada Muslim yang lain, dia tidak harus mengkhianatinya, mendustakan atau mendustainya, tidak juga membiarkannya (tanpa menolong atau melindunginya)"
"Menjadi kewajipan antara orang Islam menjaga kehormatan, harta dan darahnya. Takwa adalah di sini (sambil mengisyaratkan ke dadanya). Sudah cukup seseorang itu dianggap jahat sekiranya dia menghina saudaranya sesama Islam"




Aku pun, . . .




HAI ANONYMOUS
Tidak, Aku tidak marah terhadap engkau. Sebaliknya, aku mengalu-alukan engkau memberikan Aku penjelasan dengan jujur kerana Aku dalam keadaan keliru dengan tindakan engkau. Bukan maksud Aku menuduh engkau pengecut atau menggunakan kata-kata kesat, Aku hanya mahu melahirkan rasa kecewa Aku yang amat sangat terhadap engkau kerana tindakan melulu engkau.

"Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan ini, bukakan dan lembutkan hati semua
pihak dengan petunjuk, lapangkan dada mereka dengan Iman, ampunilah dosa
kami, jauhkan kami daripada sifat mazmumah, lindungilah kami daripada
melakukan perkara yang mendatangkan kemurkaan-Mu walaupun
sekecil zarah. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Bijaksana lagi Maha Mengetahui.
Dan Engkau Maha Teliti dan tidak lengah dalam memberi balasan
Amin Ya Rabb"

Chemistry, PAI, Biology dan Add-Math on the way!
Fi Hifzillah readers :)











Thursday, August 8, 2013

Be me for a day before you start whining








Bismillah

This month has been challenging. Through out the days I spent in Sepintar, life wasn't really as hard as it used to be. I could handle the small pricks and bites, the little changes of the heart. But then I forgot how grateful I should be even when the things provided for me weren't satisfying






Okay, tukar melayu pulak hahah. Dunia hari ini canggih dan mudah, semua di hujung jari kononnya. Malangnya, segelintir sahaja yang memuji Allah kerana kesenangan yang dilimpahkan-Nya. Kalau Atok turun tangga, 'Bismillah' . Sampai bawah dah, 'Alhamdulillah' . Subhanallah, malunya aku yang masih lagi sihat dan bertenaga pun susah sangat untuk memuji Allah yang mengetahui isi langit dan bumi. Mudahnya aku lupa untuk memanjatkan rasa syukurku sedangkan setiap pergerakan anggota badan bergerak dengan izin-Nya. Kalau tidak diizinkan? Masya'Allah wallahualam. This video slapped me hard making me wake up from a happy ever after dream. Thanks to Madame Asma for the video or else I'd still be snoring away without realizing that someone my age is working really hard and gave up school to feed her 4, 5 little brothers and sisters . Don't worry, I cried buckets haha. Press play and put yourself in their shoes for awhile. Trust me, it is worth it







Saturday, June 8, 2013

Holidays? The End











I'm hours away from heading back to Sepintar. My homework undone, my belongings undone. Cuti habis dah huh . That's not why I'm still sitting in front of a laptop updating my blog with no one reading hahahhahahah. Okaylah so these days, majority of my Facebook friends have been posting statuses related to the word couple, love and Allah. Its common that teenager's mentality about having a boyfriend, being in a relationship and wanting to be loved and appreciated. At this age it is important that they think maturely so that a fairytale doesn't turn into a tragic disaster in the end

Being a 'Couple' seems to be a trend among the teens, and there is no doubt that some of these 'Couples' would say things like "I will never leave your side", "I promise to love you forever", "We will get married and have our own kids" . Cliche. Dahlah, nak memartabatkan BM hahha. Okay so most them yang couple ni lupa kepada hukum yang telah Allah tetapkan. Mereka tersasar daripada jalan yang benar berlandaskan syariat Islam. Cinta itu lumrah manusia dan tiada sesiapa boleh menghalang seseorang untuk menyintai seseorang. Cinta itu menjadi haram apabila menyintai seseorang sehingga menimbulkan nafsu syahwat. Cehh lepas lagi la kan, nope tak lepas lagi. Couple itu tetap salah kerana ia melalaikan kita kerana kita hanyut dengan keseronokan dunia. Tetap salah kerana menghubungi pasangan tanpa urusan yang penting dan munasabah. Tetap salah kerana rentetan itu mendekati maksiat, perbuatan yang terkutuk. Tetap salah kerana ramai yang mengenepikan Allah, agama dan Ibu Bapa. Tetap salah sebab ramai yang terlanjur memegang tangan, tidak menjaga aurat, tidak menjaga pergaulan dan lain-lain yang saya yakin kita semua tahu.

Perempuan di usia remaja ni ramai yang letakkan teman lelaki sebagai kepentingan untuk hidup, priority. Normally jugak perempuan yang tak dapat kawal emosi, selalu berlebihan. Perempuan seandainya kau tahu betapa mulianya engkau! Cinta yang mengikut syariat dan niatnya kerana Allah itu sangat indah. Sangat-sangat indah sehingga saya tidak mampu nak jelaskan bagaimana but this video could explain a bit. Video ni lebih kepada perempuan yang Muslimah. Martabat seorang perempuan itu diangkat oleh Allah. Indah luaran, indah peribadi. Bercakap dengan penuh hikmah. Wahh, susah tahu nak bercakap dengan hikmah, susah nak dapat ilmu hikmah. To be ohnest video ni macam tak tepat dengan apa yang saya cakapkan but takpelah. Sedikit sebanyak, video ni dapat membantu




Arghhhhh tak sempat nak sambung, balik asrama! Goodluck seniors yang dah selamat dan bakal melalui orientasi! But I will continue and elaborate more ont his topic. Another month and a half of leaving this blog deserted, tabahlah Aifa!












Friday, June 7, 2013

4th of June 2013, Don't forget to remember me :(








A minute ago time was in a traffic of snails to me, but now Mr. Holiday is almost finishing his sentence of the last chapter of his new novel. Ready to put a fullstop. I bet every kid under the age of 17 is praying really hard and trying their best to distract Mr. Holiday from even finishing another word. I thought I just left the grounds of Sepintar minutes ago. The next blink of my eyes I'll be in class angry at myself for not finishing my homework and panicked that my clothes are all unironed and in my locker and the next day is Monday. If only we could buy time that'll be cool. On second thought maybe not

Last Tuesday, I was given a chance to meet up with my beloved Bestarians, but just some of them. As always, I expected everyone was there, yup, from Zulkarnain to Sofea. But uhh, 7 was okay. We all went for a karaoke, spent some time in the arcade. Me and Hajar watched Kil which was very very predictable. Husna, Dalila and Mia showed up fashionably late so we sorta separated from them :/All ready for After Earth before I head back to Sepintar or maybe when Outing Day comes. We walked around Wangsa Walk Mall and finally decided to settle down and have our lunch at A&W. That's where all the chaos starts over and over again. We talked, catching up with each other since most of us there were the ones who are now in a new environment. Insya'Allah guys, the next reunion will be at my own backyard. Doalah ea kalau nak lol. We called it a day around 5. Akmal gave us a downright rude goodbye -.- haha It was fun even if we didn't do much. Thank you guys for fulfilling my somewhat the most important thing to do this holiday. Seeing you guys was a priority to me. I needed it to assure myself that we won't leave each other. Its better that we're all far apart but feel really close rather than the other way around. I'm a very dissapointed about those who are slowly putting us behind them when I'm stuck at a place I don't want to be wasting my time wishing and thinking about you guys. It was like a razor-sharp blade really did a good job stabbing my back to hear about those who have changed but not on the right track.

We all know you can't keep gluing a mug up over and over again, the glu wouldn't last long enough to keep the pieces together. And now I realised that was exactly what I'm trying to do and there is nothing to stop it since I'm away to keep reminding you guys, telling you what you've did wrong, showing you what you couldn't see, dragging you to listen to my special speech. What a ride guys, and I hope you really cherished those moments we had as much as I do. Please be good, you don't wanna see me in Friday morning in Sungai Pusu chasing you then grabbed you with your shirt and treat you with my knuckles. Be careful if it does happen haha, I can rip you into pieces in no time. Don't forget that my love is your love


Zakkir (KUSSES), Akmal Rizal (Syed MASHUR? tah) Danial, Aisyah, Hajar (MRSM Parit Buntar), Me, Ain (SBPI Batu Rakit) and Sofea

The best part of the day, talking.

       




I was singing at the top of my lungs and turned around to find them
taking pictures without me. Ini melampau -,-

We sure wish to come back, but only do we know as we say the words
our hearts knew the truth