As we go on, we remember

I've been home for a few days . All cause of my leg . Act, I should be in school today but then Mom reminded me about all the stairs I have climb . Haa, kay that scares me and I don't wanna get my leg all hurt again . Adam reminded me about perlimau tapak . Halamak, dahlah ada kem orientasi pengakap . Mampuihh aku gini . Ain pulak told me about that we're gonna start wearing those new blue uniforms next monday . Ya Allah, takutnyaaa nak pikul tanggungjawab . Boleh pulak take over Badar Penerbitan next Ramadhan . Haaa, great . Pejam celik pejam celik, dah 2012 ._.

Monday was tiring -.- Mana taknyaa, turun naik segala tangga, jalan sana jalan sini . Memang tak cabut pun kaki  kaki si model ni :3 That morning, I've been crying infront of Aishah Aliah because of pain . Ya Allah, hanya kau sahaja yang tahu apa aku rasa . Oh and thank you Aliah :) Then I was okay . Still, I wanted to tear up all the things I could reach . I wanted to scream out loud and hit someone . I was in complete anger . Boleh pulak aku lepaskan dekat Maryam Najwa . Sorry honey :] Dalam kelas Shafiq dengan Khairil bising "Aina dah makin lawa xD Hitam sudaaaah" . Ya Allah, nak je aku baling meja dekat dia xD Memang ketara sangat burn makin teruk . Redha je laaaaa

Habis sekolah, pegi jumpa Cikgu Imelda tercintutt :3 I love her, weeee xD She understands a teenagers life, its good that she can keep a secret . Lagi tambah sayang dekat cikgu ni xD And then lepak dekat kelas . Sedang belek belek buku, terjumpa pulak surat Abe . Hahaha . And then koyak keratan kertas yang aku tulis time dekat Perpustakaan Negara, bagi dekat Adam :D Without noticing a thing, terbagi lagu Gloomy Sunday --' Adam, don't try to understand that song, bahaya . Trust me . Sorry baling botol air dekat kau and thanks for worrying. Nublan akhirnyaa ingat aku --' The girl with the newspapers

6.30 p.m. as usual, Aspuri held an assembly . Then ada announcement from Pak Guard, "Assalamualaikum dan selamat petang, perhatian kepada pelajar asrama puteri Aini Farihah Bt Mohd Tarmizee, sila turun ke tangga asrama, Ibu anda sedang menunggu, sekian terima kasih" . Masya'Allah, Aini Farihah mano pulok nii = =' Hahaha xD Memang tak malu pun semua Aspuri pandang . Kak Amni, thank you for lending a hand . I appreciate that a lot . Dapat free hug from Syifa' :D Atoto, sayang dia . Then Kak Syera shouted, "Aina, jaga diri elok elok, takut orang tengok Aina" . Haha, thanks Kak :) Then Afifah came rushing to me, "Kau nak keluar asrama ke?" . Taklaaaaah Ake . I'm only going home xD

Not to forget Muazzam, Afis, Hadirah and Fatin . Kamiila, Dibo, Mael and Hanif . Izzah, Wan, Mai and Adilah . Samhan, Kak Aqilah, Danial and Aizat . Guys thank you for showing me your love and care . I really need it at a time like this . Like I said, I'm lucky to have you guys with me :')

Hang in there honey

Bila Cik Aina hilang temper tak ingat dunia :3 

"Aku tak guna . Aku buduh . Takde siapa yang akan, boleh, cuba faham . Kenapa aku yang kene? Bukan orang lain? *Kutukan, umpatan dan perlian penuh kebencian* Baik mati je laa daripada hidup macam ni . Apa guna hidup kalau tiap tiap hari aku macam ni, terbeban! Ya Allah, kau benci aku ke? Aku hina ke di mata engkau? Ni ujian ke musibah Ya Allah? Aku tak tahan! *Campak, pecah, koyakkan barang yang diacapai . Jeritan menyusuli, akhirnya menitiskan air mata*"

Bila Cik Aina kembali rasional :3

Tak mungkin . Everybody makes mistakes because no one is born to be perfect . Tuhan tak sekejam itu . Kerana aku tahu, Dia Maha Pengampun, Dia Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Pemurah . Aku tak patut putus asa . Aku kene tabah . Orang lain kene uji lagi teruk Aina, ingat tu . Everything happens for a reason *Penyesalan, tempelak diri sendiri, flashbacks, kata-kata semangek sampai tiba tiba senyum --'* Maybe salah aku, aku je yang taknak terima kenyataan . Takpelah . Tak guna nak marah, nak nangis pun . Benda dah terjadi . Hahhaha, silly 'ol me xD *Laughs then sings*

You see, when we pray, God always answers us. It’s either a yes, no, or wait. He knows exactly when you’ll need something. Ever experienced those moments where things came along just at the right time? And when we don’t get what we want, it’s obviously a no. And there’s a reason for that, but only He knows what it is. All I know is that He’ll never take something away from you without replacing it with something better. Don’t ever think He left you aside. Just trust in Him. Walk by faith and not by sight

Next 2 you

This is for the people who suffered the most. This is for the people who thinks they’re not good enough, when the reality is no one can ever be good enough. This is for the people who cares about someone the most, but gets nothing in return. This is for the people who cut themselves. This is for the people who wants to give up in life. This is for the people who thinks they’re not important to anybody. This is for the people who once thought about committing suicide. This is for the people who thinks they're alone. This is for the people whose invisible to the crowd and not wanting to be heard. This is for all the beautiful people here. This is for you. You are amazing remember that. I love you 

The other side of the door

“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, when you say that you love me too.”

— William Shakespeare

The devil inside

I'm a good girl, except for the days when things kept on bothering my mind I get angry at pretty much everything and everyone for no reason . I'm unpredictable sometimes

25th June 2011

A smile can hide so many things

Yesterday was bright and happy . People rained SMK Sg Pusu's field for the school's Sport's Day . I woke up at 5a.m. *Anak sapo la ni ^_^* Uniform Pengakap tak iron lagi, semalam tak turun jog . Haih -.- . While waiting for subuh, I took my wuduk and performed the Sunat Hajat solah . I've missed doing it . I ate a bit that morning . I couldn't stuff my tummy that much . Nanti kenyang sangat tak boleh lari xD

Pagi-pagi tu, I got the chance to see Kak Mayamin . Awwwww, she's way more cuter than I expected . As usual, we had the marching, food stalls, DSLR's everywhere . Pergh, muka dah kene goreng dah berdiri tengah panas pakai uniform Pengakap . Sempat pulak Rahma, Maifu, Amirah, Syafiq and me bercakap dekat belakang mintak air xD Tah hape hape entah --' Habis kawad, menggelabah pergi tukar baju untuk acara larian *Padahal acara aku last sekali =.=* So while waiting, aku merayap satu padang, menjerit jerit sokong budak SUKOM, tangkap gambar, duduk, berdiri, berjalan, segalanya :D Unfortunately, I kept running into the same people all over again . Syamil yang tak jumpa . Budak SUKOM P3 boleh pulak bergaduh sebelum acara . Haihh . Anwar bengap -.-

Anwar : Put your hands up!

Aina : *putting up my hands

Anwar : Now turn around!!

Aina :*turns around

Anwar : *runs away

Aina : *turns back* Eh You fool --'

Tak guna betul! Then, the moment I've been waiting for arrived . Third runner from SUKOM for 4x400 meter . I kept on saying the same thing over again . Sampai taknak lepaskan Umairah xD I could feel the adrenaline running, its been years since people cheer for me . Time lari tu, ada mamat mana entah lari dekat sebelah cakap "Woi, nak gangsa ke perak? potong ah budak olimpik! Come on! SUKOM boleh!" Pergh, terus pecut Iman xD Dah pass baton dekat Umairah terus pancit, kaki kejang . Mana tak kejang, bukannya nak stretching xD Latihan pun tak buat xD *Padan muka kau, Aina* I saw Arif running then I instantly got up to my feet, "Laju lagi Arip! Long live SUKOM!" Hahaha, macam orang mabuk xD Then, took a picture with Kak Mayamin . OMG, dream come true xD Epul and Hadi, thanks a lot --' Met Mira, Adam, Najwa and Anati . Najwa dah tembum, Maigod comellnyaaaaaaa >,< Anati pulak jumpa je terus kene cubit dekat pipi . And then Maam said "Muka angel, tapi bila jumpa macam pengganas xD" Hahaha

At the end of the day, I own myself 3 medals . Gold for Pengakap's March, Silver for 4x400 meter, and Bronze for lompat kijang . Dah lama tak seaktif ni, terharu :'( Then lepak dengan Maam dengar lagu The Stranger and I Don't Love You Like I Did Yesterday . Then balik sekolah terus gerak pergi seremban . sampai je rumah dah pukul 9.30 p.m. . Adam was having Dark Mocha Frap at Klcc T.T Gosh, nak jugaaaaaaaaak . Silentkan phone, tertidur xD Hello Sunshine

Walking on glasses

Khairil Imran : Aku tak fahamlah Aina . Kau cuba cerita dekat aku, manalah tahu budak macam aku ni boleh tolong kau

Amni Afifah : Tapi Aina dah bagi dia harapan, so there's no turning back

Maryam Najwa : Its better kau stop letting orang gunakan kau . Kau kene berani sikit cakap no

Amirul Azam : Sejak kebelakangan ni Aina ku selalu nangis, aku pun nak jugak

Afifah : Kau ingat tak ceramah motivasi kau dekat aku? Kau fikir positif je, everything happens for a reason

Syuhaizat : Aina, asal dengan kau malam tadi?

Aiman Amran : Alaaa, mengapa bersedih cik adik manis? Kan aku ada

Najwa Awatif dan rakan-rakannya : Aina okay tak? Cerita la dekat orang

Muhd Ezzad : Kenapa ni? Taknak bagitau Abe pun

Maisarah : Aina, mata kiri kau bengkak ke?

Elias : Babe, you're hiding something, come on spill the beans

*Nampak sangat aku lain macam the past few days . Pergh, atoyaii ._.

I'm tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed, heh . To make things worse, I've been out of class the whole week and lost my stuffs along the way . Yeah, aweshooome . Ujian? Musibah? I prefer it as an examination that I'm gonna ace . Go girl :')

Back on the road

Siap aku kemas barang nak balik asrama *Alhamdulillah* Phone aku berdering sekali lagi . Rupa-rupanya aku menerima khidmat pesanan ringkas daripada mereka iaitu Hakim, Ren, Julie and Fadzren . Mereka mengucapkan selamat pulang ke asrama, tahniah dan sebagainya . Sejuk hati aku baca :') Thanks a lot guys . Aku teringat post aku yang sebelum ni . Aku nak dia baca . Aku menghantar khidmat pesanan ringkas kepada dia meminta dia membaca post tu . Selepas itu, aku terus mengankat beg beg aku yang penuh dengan barang-barang yang aku perlukan di asrama ke pintu rumah . Seminit kemudian, dia balas

"Malas"

Aku lepaskan handphone tersebut, biarkan ia menghempas lantai . Dalam hati aku, aku bisik perkataan "Buduhnya aku" . Ye, aku memang buduh . Aku sendiri cakap dekat diri aku dulu yang dia lelaki terakhir untuk aku . Kenapalah aku suka hancurkan benda yang aku nak . Hahaha, tak guna punya Aina . Kesal *padan muka kau Aina* Takpe, aku akan tunggu . Dah, taknak lagi cari orang lain . Aku nak tunggu untuk dia :')

Daaaaaaaaaaah, thats enough Aina *sejak bila keu berjiwang sampai ayat gempak gempak weyh --'* Haha . Esok sekolah . Tak lama lagi Aina Farihah berbaju biru . Bak kata Adam, I'm one of the smurfs xD Hahaha . Nanti dapat paper, astaghfirullah . Mampos aku kalau result teruk . Afiah nak kutip hutang xD Sekli lagi, berdepan dengan segala perkara yang akan terjadi . Tabah ye Aina, kau boleh! Blessed be guys

If you ever come back

Aku nak balik the lelaki yang aku nampak dekat Kem 1000 guitar tu . Aku nak dia, taknak orang lain dah . Ye, keputusan aku dah muktamad . Aku nak balik lelaki yang ingatkan Mahmud dengan Shamil gay mintak number dia . Aku nak balik lelaki yang aku stalk selama ni . Aku nak balik the guy yang mula mula panggil aku Baby lepas tu aku senyum sampai ke telinga fikir lain . Aku nak balik lelaki yang text aku sampai cred dia sendiri habis *Yang lain tak sanggup nak habiskan --'* Aku nak balik lelaki yang mak dia tiba tiba hantar text and then call aku takut aku sedih . Aku nak balik lelaki yang balas balik perasaan aku dekat dia . Aku nak balik lelaki yang aku call tiap tiap malam dulu . Aku nak balik lelaki yang banyak cerita about diri dia *Ye, aku suka cerita cerita tu :)* Aku nak balik lelaki yang pengsan bila nak dekat finish line untuk Road Run dia . Aku nak balik lelaki yang  aku tengok dalam televisyen sampai gelabah bila barang nak balik asrama . Aku nak balik lelaki yang selalu mainkan intro Living In Your Eyes dekat aku tsetiap kali on the phone dengan dia . Aku nak balik lelaki yang suka buat makanan pelik pelik macam kit kat goreng . Aku nak balik lelaki yang pakai baju warna merah bila jumpa time Orchestra Night . Aku nak balik lelaki yang dicubit oleh aku *Sorry* Aku nak balik lelaki yang sanggup balik jalan kaki dari Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia, Bangi pergi Kajang semata mata untuk jumpa aku . Aku nak balik lelaki yang sanggup buat white lie dekat orang lain semata mata untuk jaga hubungan aku dengan dia . Aku nak balik lelaki yang tulis poem bertajuk "A.I.N.A" . Aku nak balik lelaki yang paksa aku rehat sebab terdengar aku batuk bila on the phone . Aku nak balik lelaki yang bernama Muhd. Erza Fachreza tu

Ye, mungkin kau masih marah dekat aku dan aku mintak maaf . Aku nak kau balik, aku nak KAU . Mungkin entri ni macam batak sangat nak lelaki tapi aku taknak hilang lelaki ni lagi . TAMAT

This morning was the last time for me to see Mimi, Eliot and Zahar as usual . I woke up at 4a.m. and got ready . I took the the new novel Kaklong paid for me along with my phone . Gosh, 6 missed calls from Ren and Hakim .  I'm tired guys, sorry . Lastnight, baru beli baju biru --' Celebrated Alya Farhanah's sweet 16 at Chili's Grill Bar after that . I love coming there . Pergh, cuci mata tengok kereta mahal all the way >.<

I picked up my pace and went downstairs, took the lift to the parking lot, and made my way to the swimming pool where Mimi, Zahar and Elias is waiting . I took a seat beside Mimi and she said that I look worn out *Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, kaaaaaaaaaaaaay* And then nampak je muka eliot yang tengah khusyuk dengan guitar Zahar, aku pijak kaki dia ^^ Hahaha . Dia pulak dengan muka macho sentiasa tegurlah si budak yang nak balik asrama ni . "Whats up sleeping beauty?" Memang takde lain lah ayat budak ni xD We talked and took pictures like we use to, but this time, without our leader

"Zahar, aku sendiri mungkir janji yang aku buat"

Zahar adviced me not to make promises for myself anymore . I can but makesure I can really keep it, not somethign like this . Entahlah, I don't know what you said to MEF . I didn't even told you anything about my conversation with him . I just said that I don't like ........ that was it . Takpelah, salah faham :) Zahar said eventhough photoshoot Class of 2002 hancuss, there'll be a remake *Ni aku malas ni --'* It was 6a.m. . Elias offered to walk me home *duhh, rumah sama block kan xD* Haha . We bid goodbye to Mimi and Zahar and made our way to the lift . Sampai je tingkat 3, aku keluar dari lift

"Aina, bestfriends okay? Lupekan what happened between us before this, I'm cool with it"

Thank you Elias, you made things easier . Hakim pun, kaaaaaaan? Bestfriends :D

6th June 2011, Monday

Last Monday, hung out with Muhd Hanif and Aiza Firzanah --' Pergh, the night before it was aweshome laaaah . Act, nak jumpa Salman ^^ tapi dia gerak Mid Valley dengan Kak Aimi and Syamil . Nak Ikut tapi, haaaaa, takmau . Malu nak jumpa Kak Aimi dengan kau twin since tragedy 23 April 2011 . Sorry for all the bullshit I caused . And then boleh pulaaak gaduh dengan Ren malam tu -.- Heeeeeeeeh, cantik timing . Tapi sekejap je gaduh xD hahaha

The next morning habiskan credit call Aliah yang tak bangun bangun --' Then, she canceled it last minute . Hilang panic xD Sampai je wwm cari A&W, perut dah buat world war 3 :] Tiba tiba, brainfreeze . Haha, memang sakit laaaaaaah . This time, Hanif lambat :] Yay! xD Dia sampai je terus pergi cinema beli tickets, tengok Kung Fu Panda 2 3D ^^ Sementara menunggu for one hour before the movie, kiteorang pegilah bowling center dulu . Dapat lane 23 :D *Over the moon dahh orang tu* Menang sebab lebih satu markah je daripada Hanif xP Habis game, pegi cinema balik . Nasib baik tak ikut Aliah keluar hari Ahad . Kalau tak, kejang kejang badan dalan cinema tu tengok Karak >.< Kung Fu Panda 2 3D was aweshooomeeee! Comel kan Po time dia baby tu? Haahahaa xD Pening kepala pakai spectacles 3D tu --'

Habis movie, Hanif jemput kawan dia, Kak Faiha . Karaoke pukul 3.30 so lamaaaa lagi . Pegi makan dekaaaaaat, huh, tak ingat . Mula mula taknak makan, last last Kak Faiha orderkan Soup of The Day . Haih, jangan membazir ye, membazir amaln setan laknatullah :] Perang mulut dengan Hanif as usual xD Kak Faiha cakap kiteorang gaduh macam suami isteri --' LOL Kenyang . Gerak pergi Song Box . Memang gempaaaak la Hanif nyanyi xD Artist of the Day xD


Pergh, keluar dari bilik tuh, hilang dah suara xD LOL I was out of time to hang out over there, had to run back to KLCC --' Then, pergi Tropicana Life cari beg si Hanif . I left him with the money then rushed back to KLCC . Last minute pulaaaaaak Ibu cakap Ibu still ada client =.= Then lepaklah KLCC xD Met Ren with Kak Umairah . Ren belanjaaaaa ^^ Thankies hunn . Alya Farhanah pulaaaak belanjaaaaaa  buku Where She Went . Buku tu sedih :'( Aweshomeee xD Malas nak beli kasut this time, berjimat cermat sikit ^^ Rahim met my mom . OMG, he was shaaaaaaaaaakiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing, woooooooooh xD hahahah, The End

Bent

Dah berapa lama tak post? *chill la na, baru berapa hari -__-* Otak macam nak pecah so dah hilang segala benda yang sepatutnyaa dah post . Long story short perhaps?

3rd June 2011, Friday ; Went to the National Library, teman Adam :D Suprisingly, our outfits matched -___- Well that's fantastic . Menahan sejuk dekat library tu dengan budak perempuan yang menjengkelkan dekat belakang xD Found The Diary of Anne Frank's novel . But, letak balik sebab jumpa buku Urban Legends xD Cryptogram? Next time je lah Ainaaa

4th June 2011, Saturday ; Lent a helping hand with Aishah Aliah, Kak Mazrienna, Kak Munira and Kak Azreen at Hanif's sister's wedding . Memang sengaje pakai wedges biar tinggi sikit daripada Hanif dengan Aliah ^^ Ingatkan sampai je rumah Aliah boleh relax, rupa-rupanya dia baru nak bersiap --' Jumpa Anati and Aisyah Sabirah yang taktau pun pengantin tu kakak Hanif . Sakit belakang . Me and Aliah were the last guests *We felt special ._.* Hanif tak sihaaaat :( Perut dia buat World War 3 :] Macam orang gilaaaa  yang sihat tapi sakit xD Time nak balik, mak Hanif bagi goody lebih ^^ Aliah was thirsty, unfortunately hampir semua kedai tutup --' At last jumpa kedai yang buka and terus rush in cari air xD Otw pergi tangga besar at the main building of UIA, ran into a couple who were taking photos for their wedding wearing silver :3 Awwwww . Went home exhausted


*Blank* Byeeeeeeee