Stressed out

EXAM? HUH EXAM?

I freaking hate you whenever you come around to visit . And its because when you come, I know theres a lot more in store for me like fights, hates and more bickering hurting my damn ears . My family would be all "Aina belajar pandai-pandai nanti masuk .... , senang masuk Universiti" Tahu tak betapa sakitnya hati aku bila cakap pasal Sekolah Berasrama Penuh? If someone wants to start a conversation about it, I know my heart is going to be shattered once again . 

Sometimes being dead is far better than living . I've always kept that in mind . And Hanif, sorry I didn't reply your text . Maam finished my credit and I was so not in the mood . I cried myself to sleep thinking of my past mistakes . Not just any mistakes, I hurt everyone, destroyed their dignity . I hate thinking of it because once I did, it'll never stop . And everything comes rolling down to me .

Then, I remembered all of those spiritful songs

Everyones perfect in the usual way

We're not gonna sit in silence, We're not gonna live in fear

Get up and go, take a chance and be strong

And we can find a way to do anything if we try

Every rose has its thorn

I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

And even when your hope is gone, Move along

Whenever you knock me down, I will not stay on the ground

You want a piece of me?

I'm gonna do it my way, take this just for what it is

So I'm starting now theres not a moment to wait

Hang in for the ride of your life

Everything happens for a reason
Maybe raindrops are the bravest thing created by Allah
And thats because they're never afraid of falling